I don’t believe in New Years Resolutions because I think they’re so cliche and just open-ended promises that nobody upholds. This year I tried something different and made a list of goals I wanted to reach for myself, either in my personal life or in school or work. I’ll list the goals I set for myself below and tell y’all why 2017 was a good year for me.(Side note: this is copied directly from my notes, word for word, emoji for emoji. Some of these are a little out there but bare with me because it’s a story behind each one)
GOALS FOR 2017
- Love myself before I love anyone else ❤️
- Spring semester = 4.0 📚
- NO ALCOHOL 🙅🏽
- End all toxic relationships, if it hinders more than benefits let it go 💆🏽
- Finish at least ONE sketchbook ✍🏽
- SnS launch by September 2017
- Develop ✌🏽hobbies (new or old)
- Brush up on and establish better writing skills
- No new bodies 😶
- LIVE POSITIVITY 😊✌🏽
Just as a forewarning, 2017 happened to a good year for me. Although I faced some of my lowest lows, I reached some of my highest points as well. I think I’ve grown tremendously as a woman because I’ve learned from almost every situation I was involved in. I learned so much about myself and was able to change the things I didn’t necessarily like or care for.
One of the biggest things I’ve learned was forgiveness. And I mean serious forgive and move on with my life. I have a hard time with letting go of anything, including people and relationships because I hate giving up. I feel like giving up should never be an option because it is the biggest sign I weakness. This year I realized hat giving up isn’t a sign of weakness, but the exact opposite. In fact, I think that knowing and respecting yourself enough to know when some things don’t deserve your energy is a sign of maturity. For me it was sign of growth. I learned to remove myself from all toxic relationships and situations where I know I won’t be able to flourish. Once I fully accepted that I was able to excel and live my best life.
I didn’t make my list until March partly because the semester kicked off ao fast and I was super busy and because I didn’t really feel “new” in January. Since I want the list to be actual goals that meant something to me I took my time and wrote them down as they came to me. After I finished it I saved it as my home screen so I was reminded every single day. Of the 10 goals, I successfully completed a little over half but I still work on the other half.
This year has forced me to love myself. As simple as it may sound, it is one of the most difficult things to do. By love myself I mean love my physical self and my intellectual/mental self. I’ve always had self esteem issues because I was never confident in my physical appearance. I was always comparing myself to others and pointing out my flaws. Although I still work on dealing with those issues, I really have been able to be comfortable in my skin. I stopped comparing myself to every other woman on my timeline because I am beautiful. As long as I believe that with all my heart, no other opinion will matter to me.
I’ve also learned to pick myself and my happiness above all else. I used to live to please others and make sure everyone else was straight before I made sure I had what I needed. I made the decision of quitting not one, but two jobs this year. I’ve had the same two jobs for 4 years both of which I absolutely hated. I used to love them but over time they became more like routines to me. Before returning to school I resigned from them both because I simply was not happy. I do not regret that decision at all. Even though I was making a lot of money at both places and had gave so much time to those companies, I decided my happiness was more important than my bank account.
This year I wanted to really take care of me. This blog has helped me do that because I get to clear my mind which has helped me to process my thoughts and get feedback from complete outsiders. I receive so much insight from viewers that help me deal with the issues I continue to face and willingly share with the world. I am so grateful for that. I will keep blogging and keep growing and learning because this has been the biggest aid thus far. It still amazes me when random people tell me they love my blog and read it all the time. It makes me feel like I’m helping people get through things I’ve already done.
One goal I didn’t reach was no alcohol..well not so much. I promise y’all I am not an alcoholic, I just like to enjoy a drink or two sometimes. I made this goal because I’m college there are so many things that can distract you from excelling. I wanted to get a 4.0 GPA in the spring semester so I wanted to eliminate as many distractions as possible. I went a month without drinking and then I started again. Even though I didn’t completely give it up, I did control it better. I didn’t drink every single time I partied. I stopped for a few months and then would occasionally have a drink but I really didn’t feel like I had to drink to have fun. Now don’t get me wrong, I am not an alcoholic and I know my mother might be reading this so I apologize, but I used to drink whenever I partied. I’ve never been the party type of girl but to lighten the mood and loosen up I would have a few shots..or a bottle you know. Nonetheless, I learned tolerance and self control even though I didn’t fully live up to this goal.
I 100% believe in karma. I’m 2017 I wanted to change the person I was. Not that I was a bad lesson, but I could’ve been better. I work on my patience, attitude, smart mouth, etc every single day of my life. This year I really wanted to focus on those problem areas and spread more positivity than negativity. I tried to stay away from petty drama and support my peers. All the good karma I’ve given out is coming back to me in the form of blessings. I secured my first finance internship and I am so proud of myself. I can’t wait to get started in my field and see what the new year challenges me with. I finished the fall semester of my junior year with a 3.8. I made the Dean’s List(again, every semester since I’ve been in college), I was selected to be in the Chairman’s Recognition program for Accounting and Finance students at my university, and I seen my husband (Christopher Brown) in concert for the first time ever. I am living my best life UUHKAY!!
2017 has been, by far, the best year for me because I have for the first time witnessed myself grow. Ihave grown in almost every aspect of my life. I’m more than proud of what I have accomplished this past year and I cannot wait to see the heights I climb next year. 2017 was great, but 2018 will be even greater. I’m claiming it now! I will be a senior Finance student and hopefully this time next year I can have an even longer list of goals and have met them all.
Until next time,